For the last year or so (maybe longer realistically), I have been dealing with depression.
Even typing that word is hard. Depression wants to hide & fester. Last year was certainly not as I had envisioned it. It was tough planning my wedding and feeling like I could barely get out of bed. There are times when I wish I had lost those extra 40 pounds I've been carrying around or I see some rad wedding idea on Pinterest and I want to do it all over again! Then I remember how relieved I felt after the wedding was over :)
I'm still navigating the process of pulling myself out of the funk that is depression. Maybe it's something with which I will always struggle. Have I done everything in my power to get better? No. I still have lots of work to do. I find myself saying "tomorrow" about many, many things. I am not proud of that, it's one of my biggest shortcomings. Despite the obstacles, I can still envision success! I know I can do this!
I am forever thankful for my patient hubs, family & friends who have stuck by me. No one but me can grab these bootstraps but knowing they all have my back means the world to me. I want to start sharing more of my journey here...though it's hard for me to talk about, even with those closest to me. For me, depression often feels like a weakness. One day I hope to wave at it in my rearview & check it off the list of things I have overcome.
5 comments:
I know how you are feeling. Good for you to have the courage to 'put it out there'. Please know you have my support!
thanks girl :)
you are such a great writer, thanks for sharing the intimate and uncomfortable truths, please don't stop! it is one of the best ways to face and conquer it! xoxo Bethany
thanks friend :)
Sarah, you are such a beautiful, strong woman. Thanks for sharing...I'm afraid this is one of those things that our culture doesn't talk about enough. I'm just now coming out of the fog of ppd and its certainly been tough at times. Know that you are not alone. xoxo
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